Cy's Blessing

We were able to bless this little amazing baby on Sunday March 25th.  He was a perfect little angel.  Peter said he just laid there with his eyes wide open and listened intently.  Peter did a wonderful job blessing him, and we were so grateful to have such wonderful men be in the circle.  He continued to be perfect and amazing all day.  Being passed around and kissed on by all his adoring family.  We loved having everyone at our house after for a yummy brunch feast.  

We woke up Sunday Morning, and both Peter and I were amazed at the change in our baby, over night.  We had barely gotten any smiles out of him, at ALL, and no coos yet.  It was literally over night, he just started cooing like crazy, and smiling like a mad man.  It was SOOO wonderful.  I was getting seriously impatient!

 All 5 of us.

 Great Grandma Robbins

Great Grandma Nielson

Grandpa Robbins

Grandma Robbins

Grandma Patti

Papa Chuck

Mamma's Boy

 Daddy's mini me

 Left to Right:  Uncle Dave, Uncle Will, Uncle Andy, Peter and Cy, Grandpa Robbins, Papa Chuck, Uncle(cousin) Perrin, Uncle Dave, Uncle Bob.  Missing: Uncle Baby Chase. (Bailey and Chloe's awesome nickname for their newest Uncle.

What a great day.  

Family of 5

Life is good.  

We are adjusting well to life as a family of 5.  I have a hard time ever missing out on something potentially fun,.. so we pack up and go,.. even if it means pumping in public, or missing much needed naps.  We don't miss out on fun.  But we also really enjoy our lazy days at home.  

Poor Chloe.  I was getting so caught up in nursing ALL. DAY. LONG.  That nap time frequently got forgotten about until it was too late, and this is what happens:

 Chloe stole my Dr. Pepper,.. it clearly didn't give her the energy boost it gives her mamma.

The girls have been obsessed with "forts" lately.  On this particular day, Chloe found the iPad, and was watching Alladin when she fell asleep,.. then Bailey stumbled upon her helpless little sister, and built a fort to protect her.  Don't worry,.. I had to move the pillow from the top to even find her.  Love these girls!

Poor Chloe.  

We have gone on a few little adventures, other than the grocery store,.. which truly IS an adventure with 3 kids, by my self.

We went with cousins to "This is the Place Heritage Park"  We love our Best friend cousins.

Okay,.. most of our outings have been to Centerville.  Aren't these binkies wicked awesome?  And isn't Sammy sooo cute.  I call him Elvis,.. cause let's be honest,.. what caucasian baby is born with that much hair?  

We are getting back to normal, and MAN it feels good!

6 weeks

We made it to 6 weeks,.. we are alive!!  yea!!!

But just barely.

So prepare your self for a lot of nipple talk, and a lot of emotion.  This is more so i can remember how things happened, and what to remember for next time (heaven help me if this happens again with another kid!)

After week 3, I thought things were on the up,.. but then I got 3 more cracks on my good ole' nipples, and you do not know pain, until you feed a baby off of cracked, bleeding nipples.  So I thought it was still yeast problems.  I called my doctors office and they gave me a strong prescription to KILL the yeast.  It is doing it's job,.. but now imagine trying to heal giant cracks with a baby still latching on to them.  They just got worse,.. and worse.  So after 6 LONG weeks,.. lots of tears, LOTS of creams, and solutions, and pads, and more tears,.. I went into my doctor, who confirmed the fears that they weren't healing.  So,.. consensus,.. I have to pump ONLY for 2 weeks, and hope and pray, and hope and pray some more that this baby prefers the breast over those dumb bottles.  (If you want to hope and pray for us too,.. I'll take it)   

Around the 3 week mark also,.. I thought okay, this baby should be sleeping more than 2 hours at night, and should NOT be crying and fussing for 3 hours, and it wasn't a normal cry,.. it was a painful cry, and he would arch his back, and crunch his tummy, and spit up curdled milk.  I thought for sure it was a little reflux, so,.. off to the doctor I went.  Came home with a diagnosis of Reflux AND Colic.  Poor baby.  a little education on Colic,.. I didn't know anything other than babies with Colic, cry,.... A LOT.  Which Cy did, but only about 2 hours in the afternoon, and 3 at night.  And wanted to be held ALL THE TIME.  Colic is a tightening of the stomach, which can also cause reflux.  So a little muscle relaxer and some antacid and this baby is a whole new baby.  Sleeping almost 4 hours at night(still no Bailey) and smiling, and I can lay him down.  I can now take showers!!!!!  

So honestly, this has been the most difficult 6 weeks I have ever had to endure.   Being EXHAUSTED, mixed with a fussy baby, 2 other kids who need a mommy, and not getting hardly ANY sleep, has been the most physically demanding, emotionally draining experience,.. TOGETHER.  

Lots of prayers have been said in the wee hours of the morning, tears streaming down my face, praying that it would get better, that I could make it through the next day and not have a nervous break down.  I am here to testify that the Lord is aware of me(of you too) and my trials(yours too!) and that he is there to comfort me,.. even if it's not immediate, or even if the outcome isn't what I want.  

I am grateful for my Heavenly Father, who loves me, and cares for me, and WANTS to be apart of my life, and help me through each day.  I am grateful for my beautiful little family.  

3 weeks, 3 kids

3 kids!  I have 3 kids,.. I can't really believe that.  I look at them each and I know they are mine,.. but then when I stop to think about it,.. I think,.. "when is their real mom coming to get them?"  It's just not really real.  

Over all,.. having 3 kids hasn't been as bad as I freaked my self out about,.... having 3 kids,.. 2 of which are SUPER sick, and a husband that is sick,.. one of those sick kids ends up with pneumonia, all with-in 3 weeks of having a baby,... THAT is stressful.  All I wanted to do was comfort Chloe, and snuggle her,.. but I had to keep my interaction with her to a minimum.  Luckily the worst of it was over a weekend, and the 3 sickies could hang out together, and little baby Cy and I stayed in our room for 4 days. I got in quite a few full seasons of shows that I didn't care an ounce about,.. but now I feel the need to watch.  dumb T.V.  good thing I have plenty of down time with nursing,... and this kid LOVES nursing. 

Speaking of nursing.  I think having a C-section with out Anesthesia would have felt better than my experience with nursing this time around.   If anyone has had a problem with Candida Yeast, you may understand what I am talking about.  Nursing Bailey was painful, and I'm pretty sure I had SOME yeast problems with her,... but even that is NOTHING in comparison to this.  Cy is almost 4 weeks old, and I still cry every time he latches on, almost.  I don't think anything compares to cracked, bleeding nipples, and still letting an infant latch on a suck on them for 20 minutes.  H.E.L.L.  

So having 3 kids is a breeze. 

Having 3 kids, 2 of them being sick, one with pneumonia,.. easy peasy.

Nursing this go around,.. torture. (I tell my self every time he latches on,...It will get better, it will get better, it will get better)  I hope I'm right.

Meet Cyrus Talmage

Cy made his grand debut On February 1st at 1:04 pm. Weighting a healthy 7lbs 8oz.

I woke up on Wednesday morning at around 6am, and went to the bathroom,... Like I always do. Then at around 7:30 I woke up to a wet bed. Clear, odorless fluid. I SWEAR my water broke. So I drove myself to the hospital while Peter got the girls up, and dressed, while I waited to hear if it really was amniotic fluid. Which,... It wasn't (I still don't believe it). So they called Dr Haskett to make sure I could go home, and he waltzed into my triage room and said,.. "Do you want to have a baby today?" I had a good, long day of last minute errands planned,.. But one day less of being pregnant,... Way too enticing! So he planned to come back during his lunch to deliver Cy. AWESOME!!! So, I made some phone calls, moved to a labor and delivery room, and about the time Peter got the girls to my sister in law and got our bags all packed, and got to the hospital,.. It was pretty much time to roll.

They got got the IV in, and my lovely hair net on, and off we went. It was so casual and routine to everyone in the room,.. It totally calmed my nerves. The nurse anesthetist was really funny, and cracking jokes, Dr Haskett made sure the Killers would be an okay band to bring my baby into the world with,.. Brandon Flowers works for me! As soon as I could smell burning flesh, they brought Peter in, in his awesome jumpsuit, with a hair net(? Really?) and the tugging started. Dr Haskett announces, "good thing we scheduled a c-section, this boy is breech anyway!". Some more tugging and weird pressure and he was out. It seems like it took FOREVER for him to cry,.. But once he did, I started crying. I couldn't wait to see his face, and kiss his cheeks! Peter went over to see him, and check on him. He was sure beautiful and of course, I was INSTANTLY in love with him! Peter however sat back down, and looked like a ghost. The room got worried about him, and kind of usered him out with Cy. Peter said that when he turned around with the nurse, to bring Cy to me, it hit him that my abdomen was open and I was laying on a operating table, and it made him sick. (his weak stomach cracks me up). So they leave and Dr Haskett starts the process to find this infamous IUD. It was AWEFUL. Just imagine: being awake and knowing the dr's arm is inside your abdomen, digging around for a foreign object. Talk about motion sickness. I totally barfed. I really wanted them to knock me out,..but no luck. So they kept diggin,.. No luck. They called and got an x-ray,... No IUD in the x-ray. They made it sound like the x-ray wasn't a very good shot,.. So they sewed me up. I will have another x-ray in a few weeks and IF it's there,.. I will get to have another surgery once I am all healed up from this. Awesome. That dang IUD is just bound and determined to never be found. But MAN am I glad the IUD didn't work,.. Cause this boy is just amazing!!

We are so glad he is here. The girls have been super cute and sweet. They got to come meet him that night. They walked in and of course looked at him, kissed on him, said how cute he is,.. And then Chloe immediately asked to watch a movie on the iPad, and Bailey started in with the questions.

"Can I see your owie? is that apple Juice? (in reference to the catheter bag)  Why do you have that thing in your hand? (IV). What was the surgery like? Does Cy have a pointy Pee Pee? What are these things on your legs?(the compression sock things) and on and on and on. She cracks me up! she has just been a little mommy to Cy. She won't leave him alone. Which is fine because she is gentle, and sweet. Chloe has been pretty leery of Cy. I think I lectured her too much about things NOT to do to her brother. She finally held him on Sunday. And she kissed him, and then said,.. He's too heavy mom! And was done. Silly girl. She has asked to hold him a few more times the last few days, it doesn't last long, and it always ends with  "He's too big mom!"

We are totally Obsessed with this little man. He is so sweet, and amazing. He sleeps through all the high pitched screaming and craziness of the girls. In fact his sleeping has been AMAZING!  Our first night home wasn't much fun,.. he wanted to eat every 45 minutes.  From there on out, he usually goes down at like 11(only because I snuggle him until then) and he wakes up at 2:30 or so, and again at 6:30.  He is amazing!  His addition to our family couldn't be more welcomed, or more joy filled. We've(meaning I) have a big learning curve ahead of me. And I can't wait.  Life is such an adventure, and I'm lovin' it.  Granted, my mom just left today,.. I might be singing a different tune on Monday! ;)

Progress

We are making progress up in herr.  I have been having my weekly check ups,.. well for the last 3 weeks anyway.  It's getting old at this point.  But at my last appointment they did an ultrasound to check on the IUD,.. which somehow made it out of my uterus in the last 20 weeks, and is chillin' between my liver and my uterus,.. which are close these days.  Every appointment I hear something about this dang IUD, the more I realize how much of a miracle this little boy is.  He is sure meant to be here!  To have my uterus punctured, and the IUD escape, all the while, keeping this pregnancy is a miracle,.. not to mention the fact that I haven't had any bleeding, or cramping, or anything,.. truly a miracle. AND just getting pregnant with this sucker, more evidence that there is truly a higher power at work here. This kid has got somethin' big to accomplish in life, that's for sure.  

The nursery is almost done!  I spray painted a few picture frames, and ordered Daddy's only request for his son's room this last week.  I will post pictures when it's all done.  But,.. I am LOVIN it!  

Big sisters are getting anxious.  Bailey talks to Cy ALL the time,.. when she gets home from school she gives me kisses and then kisses my belly, and tells Cy about her day,.. not me.  Whenever I ask Chloe what she is going to do when she meets Cy, she says,.. "I NOT going to kiss him mom!"  I don't know why,.. but I am certain she is a big huge liar.  She can't leave her cousin alone,.. what would make me believe her brother is going to be treated differently?  Bailey wanted me to make her a paper chain count down, and I JUMPED at the chance,..... for my sake.  We are a little excited okay?

Peter and I (really it's just me) are a little baffled that it's really a boy(I made them double check at my ultrasound).  I got the D.L. on wieners,.. and sheesh,.. all I will say is there are things I never knew!!  Good things to know,....weird.  

The original point of this post was to just post this picture,... 

When they went in to look for the IUD, they were really nice and did the 4D so I could see his face.  I gasped, and then just felt guilty Peter wasn't there,.. it was like I was meeting our baby without his Daddy.

He looks JUST like Chloe,.... I think.  And look at those luscious lips, and big fat cheeks!!!!  I can't wait to kiss them, and squeeze them,  just like I did to Chloe,.. and Bailey,.. and most any baby I ever get very close to.  I have an obsession with fat babies mostly.  Mmmmm I can't wait!!!  Just 12 days!!!!!!

So close!!!

Just a little baby update.  

Things are ROCKIN.  I can't even believe I am pregnant.  Other than, feet the size of an elephant, and the inability to bend over,  and my general massive-ness,.. I don't even feel pregnant.  I feel SO good!  I can brag, because I have been down the other road, and know the misery of having a sicky and tired pregnancy.   I just got back from the Doctor and things look great!!  I have a c-section scheduled and I can't wait to meet this little guy in just 4 weeks! I am actually measuring at 35 weeks 6 days, and since we don't know exactly when this little guy was created,.. we are guessing that I am closer to that anyway.  

So I don't know if I should label this picture 34 weeks or 35 weeks, or heck,.. even 36 weeks.  My ankles are voting for 36!  (and yes,.. I am the size of a barge,... whatever.)

 (oh barf)

Three of my wicked awesome friends threw me and wicked awesome baby shower, and I am super sad I didn't get a picture WITH them last night :(   But here are some of the pictures I took of their seriously awesome food, and decorating.  They are like Martha Stewart, but way cuter and more fashionable!

They had this game that we played that was HILARIOUS!!  They took 3 pictures of me, 3 pictures of Peter and a bunch of different baby faces and people could go in and cut out our different features and piece them together to make Cy.  I thought it was AWESOME!!  I was laughing so hard!  And of course we played the melted candy bar in a diaper game,.. which is always awesome, and makes me NOT want to eat candy bars!  Seriously,.. be jealous that I get to hang out with these ladies,.. they are awesome!